Please don't infect others with your bad day!

We have all had are bad days, but do we ever stop to think about how are bad day may effect others around us. Everyone has their bad days, but it isn't necessary to spread it like a cancer to others in your life. In my line of work and life I come across bitter people on a daily basis. They are angry, sad, confused, and they want some one to feel their pain, demand respect they don't get, or have the mentality of "if I'm not happy no one is gonna be happy."

I have a few ways that I have come to deal with such individuals. If you are at work or not, compromise with in reason, help them out, but do not let them walk all over you. Stand your ground, but remain calm and polite. You don’t need to become infected by their negative attitude. The second way is a very difficult one and it takes the strongest of people to handle it. It may seem a little far fetched but let them go off on you. Remember sometimes people just need to vent. In my line of work it comes with the job. After the customer leave I smile and think to myself I am getting paid for this. My day will go on, and then I have to make a choice. I can let their negative attitude get to me ruin my day, and run the risk of infecting all those around me. The other choice one can make is to become aware of one's feelings. We all have the right to be sad, angry, confused, bitter, but we can make the choice whither or not to share are feelings in positive way with out becoming unglued and making life miserable for everyone around you, don't be selfish.

Those of us that are having a good day share the wealth. Ask People how their day is going; it goes a long way showing someone you care. If you make eye contact with a person smile at them nine times out of ten they will smile back. If you know someone going though a rough spell ask hope you can help. Let people know your there for them. Do not be rude to people, forgetting you manners may cause other people. On that note, always say please when making a request, we were not place on this earth to serve you. Would you like it if someone made demands of you instead of making requests? Also when someone dose fulfill a request for you, please remember to say thanks. This way what they did for you isn't a thankless job, and you made their day just a little bit better. Being aware of how we treat one another for the betterment of us as a people will help make the world a better place. Please use these random acts of kindness with the people around you, and say thank you to the people that help you whither they get paid for it or not. Thank you.

Matthew "Tuna" Osuna

CAGING THE BEAST

ABOUT TWO YEARS AGO, I FOUND MYSELF IN A BAD PLACE. I GOT TO A POINT IN MY LIFE WERE I WAS JUST FILLED WITH AN INCREDIBLE RAGE. I DID NOT LIKE WERE I WAS LIVING, I HAVE NO PRIVACY, AND WAS SURRONDED BY PEOPLE THAT DID NOT RESPECT ME. I TOOK THE LOVE OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS TO PULL ME BACK FROM THE ABYSS. THE FOLLOWING IS FROM THAT VERY EXPERINCE. HOPEFULY YOU CAN LEARN FROM THIS AND NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE I DID.

LATELY I HAVE BEEN TROUBLED, WITH THE WAY I FEEL SOMETIMES. FOR THOSE THAT KNOW ME I AM, A VERY CARING, PASSIVE, AND GOOD NATURED PERSON. BUT I FEEL, AND FEAR SOMETHING WITHIN ME HAS CHANGED. I DON'T FEEL MYSELF GETTING DARKER, BUT JUST EVIL. EVERYBODY KNOWS I HAVE A DARK SENSE OF HUMOR, BUT LATELY I WOULD SAY SOMETHING JOKINGLY, AND THEN BE SHOCKED OF WHAT I JUST UTTERED OUT. ME, SHOCKED. THAT IS NOT EVEN THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG, JUST THE OTHER DAY I WENT TO THE MOVIES BY MYSELF. I WAS GETTING READY TO ENJOY A FILM, WHEN THIS WOMAN REFUSED TO SHUT UP BEHIND ME. WITH PEOPLE CONSTANTLY SHUSHING HER BUT TO NO AVAIL SHE WOULD TELL THEM TO SHUT UP. AFTER 15 MINUTES OF HER BEING LOUD, I GOT UP STOOD ON MY SEAT I PUT MY HANDS ON HER ARMREST AND WHISPERED IN HER EAR "I YOU DON'T SHUT YOUR F*CKING TRAP, I WILL EAT YOUR CHILDREN". WHAT THE F*CK WAS I THINKING, I ME THREATEN HARM TO A CHILD, BECAUSE I WANTED A WOMAN TO BE QUITE. THAT IS NOT LIKE ME AT ALL. I ALSO FIND MYSELF BEING MORE OF AN AGGRESSOR AS OF LATE. IF SOMEONE IS BEING RUDE OR DISRESPECTFUL TO ANYONE I WILL GET IN THEIR FACE, CALL THEM ON IT AND MAKE THEM APOLOGIZE, WHILE TRYING TO LOOK AS MENACING AS POSSIBLE. ANOTHER TIME WAS WALKING DOWN A NARROW HALL WAY, AND TWO MEN WERE COMING FROM THE OTHER DIRECTION. INSTEAD OF MAKING ENOUGH ROOM FOR ALL, HE SHOULDER CHECKED ME, AND TOLD ME TO WATCH WHERE I WAS GOING. I GROWLED AND SNARLED AT HIM, I TOOK ONE STEP TOWARDS HIM AND HE CHANGED HIS ATTITUDE QUICKLY, THEN SAID HE WAS SORRY AND RAN LIKE A LITTLE BITCH. I FEEL LIKE BRUCE BANNER TRYING TO CONTAIN THE MONSTER WITHIN. I HAVE BEEN TRYING EVERYTHING TO RELEASE THE RAGE WITHIN. I HAVE BEEN WRITING, WORKING OUT, SHARING MY FEELINGS WITH OTHERS, AND ABOVE ALL PRAYING. AM I LOSING IT? AM I JUST SO FED UP WITH PEOPLE, AND AM I LOSING FAITH IN HUMANITY AS A WHOLE? I JUST FEAR THE ONE, SOME OF YOU KNOW AS LEVIATHAN IS FIGHTING TO CONTROL ME, AND OF THIS HAPPENS I FEAR WHAT I WILL DO. UNTILL THEN I WILL BE CAGING THE BEAST WITHIN TO SAVE MY HUMANITY.

KEEP YOU ANGER IN CHECK! I KNOW IT'S HARD SOMETIMES, BUT YOU CAN'T LET IT CONTROL YOU OR YOURLIFE. I KNOW SOME PEOPLE WILL PISS YOU OFF IN WAYS YOU CAN'T YET IMAGEN, BUT DON'T LET IT GET TO YOU. TRY USING SOME OF THE METHODS I USED TO HELP MYSELF GET AWAY FROM MY INNER DEMONS YOU MAY HURT YOUSELF, YOURLOVED ONES, OR SOME POOR INNOCENT PERSON CAUGHT IN YOUR WAKE. I KNOW THERE ARE ALOT OF SH*TTY PEOPLE OUT THERE BUT IF WE DON'T WATCH IT WE WILL BECOME ONE OF THE ANGER SH*THEADS THAT MOST PEOPLE DESPISE. ALSO RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS GO A LONG WAY. SMILE AT SOMEONE WHEN YOU WALK BY, WHEN YOU MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH SOMEONE SAY HI, OPEN A DOOR FOR SOMEONE, ALWAYS REMEMBER TO SAY PLEASE AND THANK YOU IF ANYONE DOES ANYTHING FOR YOU EVEN IF IT'S THEIR JOB. IF SOMEONE YOU SEE IS HAVING A HARD TIME OR TROUBLE, HELP THEM OUT ANYWAY YOU CAN. REMEMBER YOU MAY NEED HELP ONE DAY YOURSELF, OR MAYBE JUST NEED A KIND WORD FROM ANOTHER PERSON.

REMEMBER WHAT THE LITTLE GREEN JEDI MASTER SAID ABOUT THE DARK SIDE. "Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering." -YODA

Why Mess with Emo Kids?!

OK, MOST OF YOU KNOW ME AS A PASSIVE NONE VIOLENT PERSON. I KEEP SEEING EMO KIDS BEING PICKED ON SHOVED AROUND, WHAT THE F*CK IS WITH THAT? WHAT IS PEOPLES PROBLEM WITH THAT STYLE OF DRESS/MUSIC. IT'S EXACTLY THE SAME SHIT MY FELLOW GOTHS AND I, WENT THOUGH IN THE LATE 90'S. THE WORLD AND MUSIC EVOLVES BUT PEOPLE REMAIN THE SAME. DO THE EMO KIDS JUST TAKE THIS CRAP OR FIGHT BACK. BACK IN MY HOME TOWN IF PUNK OR GOTH KIDS GOT F*CKED WITH THEY KICKED A LITTLE ASS. THE REASON I BRING THIS TOPIC UP IS I SAW MANY POST/POSTERS ABOUT THE NATIONAL PUNCH AN EMO DAY , AND I THOUGHT TO MYSELF WHAT IF ONE OF THESE OPPRESSIVE MOTHER F*CKERS TOOK ME FOR AN EMO KID. IMAGEN SOME FRAT BOY/JOCK CAME UP AND SOCKED ME ONE SAYING SOME SHIT LIKE " FU*KIN EMO"? NOT ONLY WOULD GIVE THEM AN EDUCATION ON THE DIFFRENTS BETWEEN GOTH AND EMO, BUT I WOULD BEAT THEM IT TO A BLOODLY F*CKING PULP, I WOULD CARVE A T FOR "TUNA THE GOTH" IN THIER FOREHEAD WITH MY THUMB NAIL. SO, THE MESSAGE IS "DON'T BE A DICK" YOU NEVER KNOW IF YOU'LL MEET SOME ONE LIKE ME OR EVEN DRIVE SOME ONE TO COMMIT MASS MURDER BECAUSE THEY WERE PICKED ON TOO MUCH IN HIGH SCHOOL. IN THE IMMORTAL WORDS OF ARITA FRANKLIN AND JOHN LENNON RESPECT AND ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE.

The Extented Hand

Do you ever feel alone in this world, frustrated beyond redemption? You sit in the dark thinking there has to be something better in this life. We all think this way form time to time it is completely natural to contemplate your existence. Life is worth living even with someone that is obsessed with death as I am. Stop thinking about what people would do if you were dead and start thinking what is there to live for all the positives, even if it is only that one thing. We all need a helping hand at some point of our lives. We also need to help others in need, whether it's asked of us or not. Remember just because we are dark by nature does make us evil, just different. We have to take care of each other even when it seems no one else will. If anyone ever needs that helping hand it's here. There is hope for us all some way to better our life or better the lives of others. If there in no hope what chance do you have to navagate the darkness in the world. It's ok to be dark, but we all need hope that one little spec of light to show us the way. The is a Chinese Proverb that best fits what I am trying to convey. "Better to light one small candle than to curse the darkness."

The Meaning of Life: The Bounded Angel

In my eyes the meaning of life all leads to free will. We have a choice for anything that may happen in our lives, even if we do not like the choices laid before us. The choices are there for us to make decisions. The decisions we make pave the path to the rest of our lives even if we see them to be good or evil. If we make decisions we feel are evil/good we can decide to change or remain on the path set in motion by our choices. We can regret our choices we have made in our lives or we can choose to accept our decision, and realize that the choices we have made shapes us in to the people we are today. Unfortunately this is a cruel joke for if you made all the decisions your life would be perfect, but free will was given to all. So in retrospect we must choose carefully in the decisions we make for ourselves and learn or not to live with the decisions made by others.